when i am have drank more than a fare share of red wine is when I acctually feel rational, all I want to do is sleep, I do not care about feelings or any other bullshit...

Ah freedom in alcohol, that is wherein it lays... the carefree feeling... Oh how I do not care!

I did dream last night

SHE walks into my dreams from time to time, it makes me uncomfortble, but oh so comfortble. SHE just happen to be one of those I never slept with, she just seem to be someone that would be amazing, but I could never really give myself to.

I lied, I dream more and more about him, and the worst is that I know there is only one way to get rid of it. And I don't dare, because I might fall in love, and I know I am already walking that road...

I hate the chemistry... I hate it!

Hormons rage and I die

I sit in the car and the world outside fly by
I just cannot justify the feeling
it bubbles
from within
I never could ask for more or less
My thoughts wander

Open the door, let me in
grab me
kiss me hard
and long
be stronger than me
lift me up
hold me against your heart
and then slowly undress me
and I will melt in your arms
I think you know
but you don't

Citydweller

I have laid the time down
I have forgotten why
I will leave you
now and forever